For the
extended absence I do apologise.
As some
of you may or may not know, my Grandmother recently passed away. It was prior
to this and during that I took leave of my writing, my senses and my capability
to function within society without breaking down or making inappropriate jokes.
One of
the hardest things any human will ever have to do is lose a loved one and I am
no exception to this rule. The fact that this has been ten years in the making
still doesn't mean that I was prepared in any sense of the word. I may even go
so far as to say it took me totally by surprise.
When
someone can fight tooth and nail like my Grandma did then one can be forgiven
for assuming that this person is invincible. Cancer, countless infections, a
second hip in need of replacing, a fall, bleeds on the brain and a brain
tumour…this was all throughout the last decade and then as a cumulative in her
final weeks.
I can
only hope that I have an ounce of the strength and courage that she showed.
This pivotal and character defining moment has brought clarity to certain
aspects of my life which is ironic in this foggy patch. Life is precious and I
have probably superficially existed for far too long now. It is time to start
living a little more, taking a few risks (maybe just calculated ones for now)
and jumping in with both feet!
I've decided to compile a bucket list. The curious adventures of the travelling
suitcase need to get curiouser and curiouser…
